When we look at unethical power dynamics in groups, we can discover patterns and techniques that wear different clothes in different settings. In my experience, coming to recognize the universal elements can be one of the most helpful tools in recovering from cultic abuses. Consider reaching out to others who have traveled very similar paths - but in different organizations. A good place to do this is on the stories page of #igotout.org. There are many resources too. Or simply follow the hashtag #igotout and see who you connect with. I am hoping for the best possible outcome for this community. Having traveled a similar difficult road, I can attest to the fact that there IS light at the end of the tunnel.